Sunburn

Sunburn

Aku sunburn dek kerana hari keluarga aritu.

And aku stress tgk muka sendiri yang bertompok gelap sana sini. kalau rata cantik la juga. miahahahhahaa

Sekian..


***keterlupaan nak pakai sunscreen.huhu

Kereta oh kereta

Kereta oh kereta

Recently kami menghadapi kesukaran pasal kereta. Mana tak nya dua2 nak pi keje. kereta pulak cuma satu..jadi nak tanak terpaksa lah kami meminjam kete abg kepada cik abg ku dulu. huhu kebetulan dia pon blom nak pakai kereta tu sebab biras aku belom keje lagi..

jadi sekarnag ni rasanya macam dah sampai masa je kami pk pasal beli kete sendiri..macam2 tgh consider. nak beli kete second ke. kete baru ke. nak beli kete baru cukup ke duit nak bayar bulan2? dengan nak bayar rumah lagi.. lagi pon nak beli kete ape? kalau boleh kalau beli baru mmg nak beli mpv sebab berbaloi sikit. senang kalau nak jalan ngan famili. nak beli kete second kete ape pulak yang ok. berbaloi ke.. second2 pon mahal juga.. tapi kalau beli second cash yang murah2 takde la pening hutang tiap2 bulan. aduhh pening2..

jangan marah la ek kalau kitorang tetibe terbeli Grand Livina jugak. hahahhahhahaha..tetibe tersama dengan abg I punyo kete plak.. kih3.. :D

***kalau la duit boleh petik kat pokok ek? bestnye :D :D

Dilla kembali lagi

Dilla kembali lagi

Assalamualaikum.. ehehhe..

Cukup 6 bulan 15 hari aku xbersiaran kat blog ni..lama sungguh kan..

Sesunggunya betol2 xde masa pon nak jenguk blog sendiri apatah lagi baca blog orang.

sebenarnya ada banyak nak cerita.. cuma tak de masa and xtau nak citer dari mana..

so, insyaAllah slow2 la k :)

yang pasti aku dah kat Malaysia sekarang..

bagi sedara mara yang aku lom sempat jumpa lagi tu. inysaAllah raya nanti kita jumpa la k..


***slow slow... :)

Coffee

Coffee

I think I've been attached to coffee too much. Yes.

I didn't realize that actually. I take coffee everyday. Sometimes more that one cup in a day. Coffee in the morning. Coffee with milk in the afternoon. And sometimes coffee again with milk and milo in the evening. So my body says I must have coffee everyday! I know it is not good to have it too much. They are all caffeine. So, some times I try to change the afternoon drink with plain water or hot tea. Its not really a bad thing as long as I already have coffee earlier, I mean in the morning or at least once a day.

Until recently, I had cough and sore throat. I can't take coffee in that condition, it will only make it worst. So, I didn't take coffee. I think it has been more that 5 or 6 days. Apparently my body response to it. I feel so tired, sleepy during the day, I could sleep on my desk just like during my school time. I need afternoon sleep everyday. And I sleep early at night. Leaving all my task and hoping I can continue the next day but it didn't happened.

And today, I feel pretty confident to take coffee again as I feel the sore throat has gone. So I did. I made a cup of good coffee with milk, and I can feel my brain suddenly feel fresher and no more sleepy eyes! Just like a miracle. O dear, now I am scared already. Am I addicted to caffeine? Please, please say no. >.<"

***another big cup of coffee for tonight.

Perfume idaman

Perfume idaman

Pukul 5.40am, kepala aku senoneng and aku belum tido lagi. sat lagi nak tido. so tanak pk yang berat2..just nak tulis kat sini yang aku mengidam perfume ni. so kalau ada sesape rasa nak belanja kite dialu2kan ye he he he he he he... :D

***nunite all (bak kate sufia) hehe

Please say it wasnt real

Please say it wasnt real

Another gloomy day in Melbourne. It is raining since early this morning. Seems like the nature is empathizing what had happened.

I woke up today, wishing that whatever I have talked with my friend last night were all not true. Were all just stupid mistakes that only happened in TV shows. Wishing that was not happening to one of my closest friends. Wishing that everything were just bad dreams.I woke up. Gazing at  the clock.It was ticking. And I know it was not a dream. It was all true. And I have to accept. Pretty hard to digest everything all in once. It is not my burden. But I am feeling it too.  Its all beyond whatever my friends and I think of.

I pray for her. I pray for her best. InsyaAllah she will overcome all these conjecture with ease.

*** 'Rain' please go away..

My new obsession

My new obsession

OK should I say it as obsession? heheh that might sounds a little bit too much.

just wanna tell you that I've been watching Sherlock since the past two days. And I've finished the first season. Isn't it impressive? :p Actually they were only 3 episodes in each season. A pretty short series. I watch them in the morning and before I went to bed and that's it..

I have already fallen in love with the stories and can't wait to watch the 2nd season (already in my hard disk as well hehehe) just waiting for my free time  ^_____^

***Sherlock and Watson

It is official

It is official

I think I spent too much time on Facebook recently. Really. And that really worries me. I should concentrate more on my works and cannot let myself distracted. I think FB is not my playfield anymore for my age. I should rather spend my time on my work, my research and my thesis. And do something good. Recite Quran etc.

It is official. I am going to leave FB for a while. I don't have the password anymore. I have changed it to something that I don't even know. Maybe I'll log in again later but not so soon. I'll wait until I am ready. Finish the job etc. And I am currently doing the programming again. I should focus on it, like, really really focus.

So, till we meet again on facebook. I am still here anyway. Any photos or any of my thought I will share it here. I think it is better since it will be less harmful to the audience since there aren't to many audience here. Haha.

Moving towards a better me.

***So long...

Iklan raya

Iklan raya

Aku rasa macam dah jadi tradisi juge kat msia tiap2 kali raya mesti sume dok tunggu iklan2 raya yang best2..nampaknya tahun ni macam suram sikit sebab xde byk iklan pon yang kuar(kat FB).hehhe kat tv xsure la ek aku xsempat tgk tv msia sangat...

apa pon iklan ni aku rasa mencuit hati.. simple tapi best. padat dengan mesej..thumbs up to Maxis punya iklan raya 2013 :)



***nak buat kuih raya ke tahun ni?tgk nanti cemane

Budi bahasa

Budi bahasa

Bila kita memandu, pastu kita bagi laluan kat orang untuk jalan dulu, pastu orang tu buat muka and blah je..mesti sikit sebanyak kita rasa geram kan?Kurang2 pon kalau xsempat nak senyum, angkatlah tangan sikit. Tanda kita appreciate orang tu bg laluan.Betol x?

ermm dalam hidup ni, pada aku..biar duit takde pon..muka pecah lapan pon..tapi, budi bahasa kena lah ada..

kalau orang kasi apa2 tu cakaplah time kasih. kalau nak mintak apa2 kat orang tu cakaplah please or tolong. kalau baru nak mulakan perbualan tu bagilah salam dulu, tanya kabar ke..

kalau kita belajar tinggi pucuk atap pon, muka lawa macam neelofa pon tapi kalau budi bahasa xde orang nak tolong ikhlas2 jadi xikhlas..orang nak layan kau pon boring je..huuhu..kita pon kadang kena pk lah perasaan org kalau org tu duduk kat tempat kita. mmg xmungkin kita boleh puaskan hati sume orang..tapi pk lah sendiri kita happy ke kalau org buat perangai jeruk masam kat kita pulak...huhuhuhu sabar je lah..

***macam2 manusia

Nak cantik?

Nak cantik?

Sapa xnak cantik kan? Sume nak..Hmm masing2 usaha nak nampak lebih cantik dan lebih menyerlah..Tak salah usaha tu. Tapi hati2 lah..jangan salah consume.. pilih2 apa yang kite nak amek..kaji betol2 ke..ok ke x content dia.. takut akan datang macam2 penyakit lain yang datang..

ni gambar aku amek dari blog Bun Bun from Singapore, mungkin nasib dia xbaik kena alergi lepas facial. tapi kita xnak lah jadi camni kan? nauzubillah...aku tgk pon tak sanggup. teringat masa zaman jerawat teruk dulu. rasa nak nangis pon ada ;(

jom kita dengar poem ni pulak. from Amal Ahmed(Mesir), Let Your Nature Glow :)



***kita semua mmg Allah jadikan cantik..InsyaAllah.. :)

Resolusi bulan ramadhan

Resolusi bulan ramadhan

Ramadhan tahun ni aku nak pasang azam. Azam ni patutnya aku dah lama buat, tapi kenapalah sampai umut aku 30 baru la aku ada cita2 nak buat. Malu dengan diri sendiri ...;(

Azamnya simple je..aku nak latih diri aku supaya solat cepat2..secepat yang termampu la..kalau ada yang menghalang tu, takpelah dilewatkan sikit. maksudnya kalau aku mmg kat rumah or kat opis, dalam keadaan yang tak tight langsung, aku akan cepat2 solat..xnak lengah2..tu je.simple kan?? harap aku berjaya buat, insyaAllah..

Time aku tulis post ni azan Asar baru je berkumandang dari jam rumah kitorang. jadi aku nak pi solat dulu ye..bye..;)

***Mudah2an aku jadi insan yang lebih baik selepas ramadhan ini.

Puasa hari apa tahun ni?

Puasa hari apa tahun ni?

Puasa hari apa tahun ni? Kami kat sini insyaAllah dah ditetapkan hari Rabu. Kami ikut saja..mudah2an yang paling tepat..amin.

Selamat Menyambut Ramadan Al-Mubarak kawan2 dan saudara-mara semua..semoga Ramadhan tahun membentuk kita jadi yang lebih baik dari sebelum2nya. semoga kita dapat laksanakan ibadah puasa dengan mudah dan lancar. Amin..

***Tahun ni buka puasa sorang2..macam biasa ;)

Jowo

Jowo

I am a Javanese girl.. everyone knows that. In fact, some of my friends called me Dilla Jawa to differentiate between me and my friends with the same name. Yes, I have quite a few friends name Dilla. Pretty awkward at first, but it was fun! hehe we still have good relationship until today and tease each other on FB (oh this is one of the reason why I keep my FB account with me, to get connected with my old friends)

OK back to the Jawa topic. I have to admit that my language is not as important now compare to during my moms or my grandparents centuries. In most places in Johor, we converse in Malay at home, at school, among the families and people used our language less and less everyday. But, for older people like my mom, they still feel comfortable to converse among them, and not with us. If we have a chat during tea time or evening time while watching TV, they usually switch the language accordingly depending on whom she is talking to. haha see, that is why young people like us do not bother to learn or even practice our language in our own family.

What ever it is, I feel so so blessed because God still give me the skill to speak the language. Should I make a "show-off" statement here? I would say, among our siblings, my sisters and brothers, I think I can talk  most fluently compared to them, in the language of course. I talk much more naturally and at least I pronounce the word in less awkward way compared to them. Even my big brother has lost too many Javanese words already. Hahhahahhaa sorry, but thats a fact :p

Why am I talking about Jawa today? Hehehe just because we had a little conversation last night, between me and my friend in Jawa! Well, actually I didn't contribute much in the conversation as I was too sleepy. But still, I find it funny for young people like us to write in totally different language and I bet even my Malay friends won't understand anything from the conversation. Eh! Did I say funny? No, I suppose to say, I am proud of that!

***Enjoy

Unlike

Unlike

Hari ni aku unlike 2 orang dari facebook.. yang aku unlike ni adalah page orang2 yang selalu jadi icon..entahlah aku sebenrnye suke baca tulisan diorang...tapi kadang2 aku xsetuju bila cara diorang menunjuk2 apa yang diorang ada.. apa diorang buat..

jadi hati aku akan rasa xsenang..pastu rajin la aku nak tulis komen..wpun aku tulis dengan baik tapi lama2 jadi berlarutan..menimbulkan benda2 yang bukan2..astaghfirullah..baik aku avoid terus dari tambah menghitamkan hati aku ni..sedangkan hati aku xsuka baca benda2 berbaur riak nih..

aku dah penah rasa hidup di zaman susah and jugak di zaman yang ok..bukan senang, tapi ok..so aku tau la apa rasa bila orang cakap ko pulak bila nak buat? sedangkan kita tau kita xmampu...

Waallahua'lam..semoga Allah ampukan dosa aku yang khilaf nih..

;(

***dalam proses kurangkan fb..tapi susahnyaaa

Slow down

Slow down

Memandangkan aku macam takde mood je buat mase ni nak merepek kat sini, so officially I would like to announce yang blog ni akan di slow down kan perkembangannya..

mungkin sekali2 aku akan menulis la..

tengok keadaan..

ok tu je nak bitau..

bye.


***salam...

Beg longchamp

Beg longchamp

Hehe bukan nak cakap aku beli beg longchamp..

ermm recently otak aku dok ingat handbag je..haissshhh aku mmg macam ni..ada masanye tiba tibaaaaa je..teringat handbag...survey sana survey sini..tapi nak beli duit tade kui3..

tiba2 ada terborak2 dengan sorang kawanku..kawan ni mmg gile membeli handbag..awwww aku sungguh kagum dengan koleksi bag die ok..huhu buat masa ni mmg mampu tolong kira je lah..haha.. dah die mampu and die suke biar lah kan..lagi pon bukannye beg tu simpan je buat perhiasan..cehh backing ni backing.. ;p kawan tu kate ada belikan beg longchamp kat anak..hihi anaknye baru darjah 4 or 5 uollss..

hahahhaa aku tergelak je lah dalam hati..lagi 5 6 tahun pon terbeli tak agaknye beg tu untuk diri sendiri..hmm tapi sebenarnye macam xberapa taste aku sangat pon...cehhh ada taste la pulak ye..

***merepek petang2

indahnya bahasa

indahnya bahasa

malam ni aku stress sikit.
sebabnye- sufia buat perangai, tanak tido awal..sekarang die dah ada habit tido lewat and bangun lewat..susah ini macam..

mlm ni aku kena siapkan kerja..paper tu mesti kena submit esok by hook by crook.
so aku mmg kena buat lah sampai habis. bile dah malam camni tentu2 lah dah penat dan ngantuk. aku bukan dapat tido or nap pon tadi..

so pendek kate, malam ni aku "boco karo merem".huhu korang paham ke?
emm tibe2 je aku terfikir, indahnye bahasa ni kan..setiap bahasa tu unik. aku suke belajar bahasa. aku suke tiru dialek orang tempatan..hehe mmg suke lah..sebab tu kalau aku jumpe kawan swak aku terikut ckp swak, jumpe org nogori pon terikut juge..actually bahasa melayu yang penuh puisi2 tu pon aku suke..

basically i speak malay, english, jawa, a bit of melayu sarawak, a bit of mandarin, a bit here and there..ok la tu kan..actually mmg ada cita2 nak belajar bahasa mandarin, jepun dan arab..hehe entah ada masa lagi entah tidak xtau la kan..


***kalau yang xbiasa bahasa jawa, baca ayat aku kat atas tu mesti rasa cam bunyi hindi/tamil kan? ;p

Life is a process

Life is a process

Dah banyak kali aku gugur. dah banyak kali aku terduduk dan dah banyak kali aku nak mengalah..

hinggalah satu masa dalam sebulan yang lalu..
aku rasa aku betol2 dah kalah..aku nak balik dan aku taknak teruskan semua ni..
aku rasa macam kerja gile..
kenape aku pursue phd at the first place. banyak lagi benda lain aku boleh buat dalam dunia ni.
in fact aku perempuan, aku keje je ape2 pon  just untuk income tolong suami itu dah cukup dah..tanggungjawab cari nafkah yang utama bukan atas bahu aku..

dan pada masa itu..
sebulan yang lalu itu, aku menangis teruk2..
sebab aku rasa mmg bukan rezeki aku ni nak dapat phd..
aku patutnye redha je lah..

tapi..
suami aku kata..
dengan tenang..
mok..
mok dah start semua ni..
takkan mok nak stop..
cube bayangkan..
dah tiga tahun..
kenape mok nak stop?
sebab mok rasa mok buat keje sikit sangat?
sebab banyak lagi belom buat?

mok..
abang tau buat phd mmg susah..
abang tau cakap mmg senang la..
(mcm abang ni)
tapi mok cube fikir..
kalau mok berhenti sekarang rasa2 mok menyesal tak nanti? -AKU TAKDE JAWAPAN

mok..
mok takut empat tahun pon masih xdapat phd lagi?
dah banyak contoh..
ramai yang xhabis, ramai yang ambik extra masa..
takpe..
takpe kalau mok ambik 5 tahun ke  6 tahun ke..
takpe..
yang penting mok xmenyesal..

kata2 ni sampai hari ni tersemat dalam hati aku..
insyaAllah, kalau Allah izinkan aku ingin habiskan pengajian aku ni..
biarlah ape orang kate..
biarlah ape orang sebut..
yang penting aku cuba..
lebih malu kalau aku tak mencuba..
dan aku xnak menyesal sebab xmencuba..

semoga Allah permudahkan jalanku..
semoga Allah sentiasa memberi kerahmatan atas suamiku kerana sentiasa berdiri dikiri, kanan, depan dan belakangku..
semoga aku terus bertabah mengharungi hari2, bulan2 dan tahun2 sukar ini..

teruskan dilla. walaupun kau tak nampak jalanmu..teruskan tanpa henti..biarkan Allah sahaja tentukan kesudahan perjalananmu..
yang penting kau teruskan..

life is a learning process, and I learned new things each day..

aku harap kawan2 dapat doakan aku ye..amin

***phd 2013

After 4 years

After 4 years

Mok, so far ni sup paling sedap mok penah masak.

Kihkihkih akhirnye after 4 years. maksudnye suami I  suke sup yang dimasak guna sup bunjut la tu..selame ni I guna rempah sup.huhuhu bagus la dah tau senang, xyah pakai rempah sup dah..hihi

 

***ada sesetgh benda amek mase yang lame baru jumpe yang terbaik. kehidupan.