Bila kita memandu, pastu kita bagi laluan kat orang untuk jalan dulu, pastu orang tu buat muka and blah je..mesti sikit sebanyak kita rasa geram kan?Kurang2 pon kalau xsempat nak senyum, angkatlah tangan sikit. Tanda kita appreciate orang tu bg laluan.Betol x?
ermm dalam hidup ni, pada aku..biar duit takde pon..muka pecah lapan pon..tapi, budi bahasa kena lah ada..
kalau orang kasi apa2 tu cakaplah time kasih. kalau nak mintak apa2 kat orang tu cakaplah please or tolong. kalau baru nak mulakan perbualan tu bagilah salam dulu, tanya kabar ke..
kalau kita belajar tinggi pucuk atap pon, muka lawa macam neelofa pon tapi kalau budi bahasa xde orang nak tolong ikhlas2 jadi xikhlas..orang nak layan kau pon boring je..huuhu..kita pon kadang kena pk lah perasaan org kalau org tu duduk kat tempat kita. mmg xmungkin kita boleh puaskan hati sume orang..tapi pk lah sendiri kita happy ke kalau org buat perangai jeruk masam kat kita pulak...huhuhuhu sabar je lah..
Dalam hidup ni banyak benda yang datang dan pergi.
Kawan kawan, saudara mara, harta, cinta, kasih sayang. Banyak lagi contoh2 lain..
Sabtu lepas, ada kawan kami yang balik for good lagi..masing2 balik. tinggallah kami2..hehe actually ramai lagi kat sini. tapi oleh kerana aku x berapa campur orang sangat lately ni jadi orang pon xkenal aku..hahahhah. ermm akhirnya family Kak Wati dah balik tinggalkan kami..hari rabu ni turn family Kak Lin pulak..
tapi dalam pada tu, ada kawan baru juga yang sampai hari Sabtu tu..Hajar sekeluarga..mudah2an diorang cepat2 dapat rumah. xyah pening2 kepala nak transit rumah orang lain lama2..bukan apa, aku paham mcm mane perasaannya tumpang rumah orang lama sangat. mesti lama2 rasa xselesa kan..
apa pon centulah, sume datang dan pergi. mudah2an Allah tetapkan iman kita sentiasa dengan kita..janganlah kau pergi dariku wahai iman.. :)
***konon nak buat keje hari ni. tapi blur. kepala pon sakit 2 hari jerawat punya pasal.sobss
Sapa xnak cantik kan? Sume nak..Hmm masing2 usaha nak nampak lebih cantik dan lebih menyerlah..Tak salah usaha tu. Tapi hati2 lah..jangan salah consume.. pilih2 apa yang kite nak amek..kaji betol2 ke..ok ke x content dia.. takut akan datang macam2 penyakit lain yang datang..
ni gambar aku amek dari blog Bun Bun from Singapore, mungkin nasib dia xbaik kena alergi lepas facial. tapi kita xnak lah jadi camni kan? nauzubillah...aku tgk pon tak sanggup. teringat masa zaman jerawat teruk dulu. rasa nak nangis pon ada ;(
jom kita dengar poem ni pulak. from Amal Ahmed(Mesir), Let Your Nature Glow :)
***kita semua mmg Allah jadikan cantik..InsyaAllah.. :)
Kasut and perempuan bernama Dilla mmg tak boleh dipisahkan..hehhee..sejak zaman dulu2 lagi..semenjak aku mula pegang duit sendiri..aku mmg kojenye dok beli kasut sokmo..adehh..membazir kan?tapi cenggitu lah..tak tau nak kasi ubat ape..makin duduk sini makin kronik pulak jadinya..
nak jadi cerita, sabtu lepas ada kawan cerita, ada satu kedai kasut nak tutup. kedai tu jual kasut Clarks. aku mmg suke brand ni sebab tahan lama even yang tumit2 pon selesa sangat pakai. tapi of course aku suke kalau dia murah2 aje.. kalau yang sampai ratus2 tu mmg xkan beli la..gilo..beli mahal2 pakai kat kaki je..lagipon duit aku xlah sampai boleh dibazir2 macam tu..emm bila I dengar kisah ni lagi lah I berkobar2. padahal keje banyak nak siapkan nih..
dengan adanya member yang pergi juga, maka makin kuat lah gaya nya nak mengajak ince' aren beta :p kawasan situ nak pegi mmg kena ajak ince' aren sebab nak parking susah. takuttt..huhu
bila sampai kedai tu, aku terus lupa PhD. warghhhh mmg xhingat dunia sungguh! semua kasut $15 sepasang. kasut baru OK. huuaaaaa nak nangis tengok..fyi, $15 bersamaan rm45 lebih kurang. kalau rm45 boleh la kot dapat kasut padini kan..ok jugak la kan..tapi ni Clarks...Clarkssssss...tak penah aku jumpe kasut Clarks murah macam tu..huu ince' aren pon senyum je..takde macam signal suruh stop pon. aku pon ape lagi, pilih dan pilih lagi..tapi malangnya saiz banyak dah habis...byk dah saiz beso2..tu yang rugi tu..kalau pegi awal sikit mesti byk saiz lagi..huuu..
akhirnya setelah dua jam. kitorang buat macam kedai sendiri..panjat sana, panjat sini. sampai rasa nak mabuk pon ada, maklumlah puasa..emm maka aku pon stop..hehe aku dapat 6 pasang, sufia dapat sepasang. hihihi memandangkan besday aku dah dekat, so ni kira besday present in advance le ni.. ok la ni..total kasut aku $90 = rm270..hehehe dah happy sangat dah aku.. mmg sesuai sangat la tu,menepati bajet besday present kami kikiki :p
You are struggling with something. You try very very hard. Never stop and never give up til you are feeling so tired. You feel like you want to cry. But, no! You can't. You have to be strong. Yes, stay strong. But, deep inside you, you are worried. And you cried already. Yet, you can't show it to people that you are weak.
Until, your eyes catch the appearance of your love ones. Or until that someone, i mean very very close to you comes to you. And say, "Hey, what happened? Are you alright?". Then, that is the moment everything like bursting out and you know that you are not alright at all. You are just pretending to be alright. And you cry on her/his shoulder like you never cry before.
Well, I am actually not talking about myself. I am talking about Sufia. Something happened at school yesterday. I was there picking her up from the child care, earlier than usual. I watched her secretly until when the teacher told her that I was there already ready to picked her up. And suddenly, she ran to me with all the tears. Her teacher said, "Sufia, you never cry before, what is wrong. Is there anything makes you unhappy?". Sufia just kept it quite and she hugged me. I knew what was happening. It wasn't something bad, but its just that, she felt so tired with what she had to faced. And she need to keep running, tried to catch it the best she can. But, it was very hard.
I know what it feels like, because Phd has taught me that. Always try to be strong, always try to keep everything to myself. Always try to hold the tears. But, when it comes to a few magic moments when my husband hugs me, when my stress level has rise to the very top of the ceiling, I will burst everything like crazy. I never cry so loudly before. Never. Until I do my PhD. And I hope its worth it.
Remember in the previous post I mentioned about a journal paper? Did I mention that?Didn't I?
OK. I have prepared a paper. Well actually at first I am targeting to submit the paper to another conference. Hopefully the conference will include the paper into any journal. Any journal could be. I don't mind at all. As long as it is a journal. Even if it is a 'cheap' one.
BUT, my SV said, you are in the fourth year now and there is NO POINT for you to have another conference paper if you still don't have a journal. So, I want you to submit it to an establish journal. OK that's fine.
BUT, the thing is we plan to submit it before middle of August, which means I only got about 2 weeks to make a big improvement on the paper plus the proofreading. That is a BIG CHALLENGE for me. Will I manage to do it? We will see..
I will write here again about the journal in two weeks time.Wish me luck!
Alhamdulillah now we are entering the 12th day of Ramadan. So how was everything? For me, Alhamdulillah so far I don't have any problem doing the ibadah this year. Alhamdulillah..
Usually we only take rice with the dishes from the previous night for iftar. hehhee that is how we do it almost everyday. I cook some food at night, then we will have the same food for sahr and iftar. Well I don't have too much time to be spent the kitchen, plus, ince' aren won't be at home in the afternoon. So, everyday is a lonely iftar for me. There is no point I cook something just for iftar if it is just for myself. It won't be fun at all.
Today I requested ince' aren to get foods from Bazaar Ramadan a.k.a PARAM. heheh I told him, I am too tired this week and I really need to get a day off from the kitchen. As always, he understands me, he really is a good man. O Allah bless him. This is the first time we go to the bazaar Ramadan this year. So, everything looked too tempting to us. But we tried our best to control our nafsu hehe. Luckily I only brought my coins purse to the bazaar. We had around $20 in that purse. And we finished them all! OK there were still some more in the purse, but only 10c and 20c.. :p Hahahha
So, these are basically what we have today:
1. Nasi sambal goreng x2 = $12
2. Kuih muih = $3
3. Murtabak = $5
Altogether is $18
And then ince' requested pulut serawa durian. and I agree to cook it. It is an easy dessert so I don't have a problem with that at all. But, let me tell you, the cost for pulut durian is more that the main course!Astaghfirullah what a waste. huuu but we really miss durian too much. So, this is cost for pulut durian:
1. Durian 1.3kg(6 ulas) = $23 <--Musang King from Malaysia
2. Coconut milk = $1.30
3. Glutinous rice, sugar, red sugar = $3(approx)
Altogether is $27.30
That means we spent $45.30 for our iftar today. SubhanAllah.. too much right? Yes, too much indeed.huk ;( now I am bloated already and it make me too lazy too move. I better perform the Isha' and Tawarikh prayer now before it is too late.
After a month, we finally have a meeting today. I am a type of person, that prefer to focus doing my work at home an then show the output to SV. I don't like it when I met him I have nothing in my hands.
So, after a month we have a meeting today. Discussing about my thesis. And the recent paper that I finished writing. We talk about submitting the paper to a journal. Any journal but the minimum is B journal. That's OK. I didn't expect to pass the study with flying colours. I never expect that. As I am still not good in research. Even in my fourth years of study.
So conclusions from the meeting. He said, one more experiment and you are good to go. Then I can concentrate fully on the thesis writing. I will do, what ever it takes to complete the thesis. I will. Because I will submit my thesis. I am at the end of it. I am almost there.
Guess what?? I almost cry when he said that. Tak sangka! Walaupun. Walaupun I still havent finish the experiment but at least I know when I can stop with all these. Allah.
Ya Allah, kau berikan aku kekuatan mental dan fizikal ya Allah untuk aku pulun semuanya. Ya Allah kau pinjamkanlah sekelumit dari ilmuMu yang tiada penghujungnya kepada hambamu yang kerdil ini. Sesungguhnya aku tak layak untuk meminta2 darimu tapi hanya padamu aku memohon dan berharap. Bantulah aku ya Allah. Berilah aku idea2 yang baik untuk aku selesaikan experiment ini dan lancarkanlah penulisan thesisku yang masih tergantung ini. Ya Allah, berkat bulan Ramadan ini, bantulah hambamu ini Ya Allah.
Kawan2 doakanlah aku ye..aku ingin pulang dengan sesuatu.
Today I attended another conference and presented my paper. Nothing fancy but at least I got something.
I can feel that I am much confident this time compared to my previous conferences. So, on the way back at the train station, I bought something for myself. A small reward. This time, I really just choose and pay, and walk away without thinking of my husband or even my darling daughter. Haha it has been a while I never act this way. Usually when we go shopping, I will always save the money to buy something for my anak 1st.anak is always the priority now. hehhee and then only I will think about myself. Usually I will get something for myself only with my husband present. It is his money anyway :)
So, I wanna share what I got today. taraaaa...a cute coin purse for ibu. a cute purple coin purse.
I love it too much. But, when I think about it again. It is actually not that cute.hahhahahahha..and not really worth for the money. dangg!! :p whatever it is, the colour is purple, it is my favorite colour. so yeahh who cares whether it is cute or not??! heh
mungkin terakhir kali sebelum kami pulang tinggalkan bumi down under ni..sedih? mmg sedih..aku suka tempat ni..very much..susah nak explain. but i really like this place. that's all..
Alhamdulillah kami berkesempatan lagi nak main snow tahun ni. tahun ni kami pegi yang dekat saje..sejam lebih dah sampai ke Lake Mountain..tapi tulah snow nye ala2 je lah adanya..tapi still manmade snow ada..so ok la kan. kami sengaje xnak pegi yang jauh2..sebab dah serik dua kali kami pergi kami pergi yang jauh tapi sufia menangis sepanjang2 kat sana. sebab dia xsuke snow jatuh atas muka dia..huhu..die tak suka snow lebat2 tu..and dia mmg penggeli orgnya..sudahnya kami mmg rasa letih sangat2..haishh
Snow trip kali ni, walaupon Sufia masih dengan perangai penggeli yang amat tu dia nak la juga main luncur2..and she looked enjoy! mungkin sebab dia pon dah besar sikit. and dah paham bahasa sikit...akhirnya kami ada gamba yang elok bersama snow huhuhu :)
***berjalan time bulan puasa mmg syok!!bekal pon xyah bawak.ngehehehe
Ramadhan tahun ni aku nak pasang azam. Azam ni patutnya aku dah lama buat, tapi kenapalah sampai umut aku 30 baru la aku ada cita2 nak buat. Malu dengan diri sendiri ...;(
Azamnya simple je..aku nak latih diri aku supaya solat cepat2..secepat yang termampu la..kalau ada yang menghalang tu, takpelah dilewatkan sikit. maksudnya kalau aku mmg kat rumah or kat opis, dalam keadaan yang tak tight langsung, aku akan cepat2 solat..xnak lengah2..tu je.simple kan?? harap aku berjaya buat, insyaAllah..
Time aku tulis post ni azan Asar baru je berkumandang dari jam rumah kitorang. jadi aku nak pi solat dulu ye..bye..;)
***Mudah2an aku jadi insan yang lebih baik selepas ramadhan ini.
We were having a small birthday party for Sufia at her school yesterday. Though it was only a simple party, yet it was fun. Haha the funny thing was, Sufia was blur and seems like she had no idea with what was going on! Until we get home, and she watched herself in the video, she actually was so excited. She even told me that teacher asked her to blow the candle and she showed to me how she did it. Hehehe funny little girl she is.
I am so happy everyone enjoy the cake. All the teachers said that the cake was so yummy and beautifully made. I ordered for Sufia her favourite character cake which is Upsy Daisy. And I myself felt in love with the cake. It was a lovely cake indeed! And yummy too...yummmm
Puasa hari apa tahun ni? Kami kat sini insyaAllah dah ditetapkan hari Rabu. Kami ikut saja..mudah2an yang paling tepat..amin.
Selamat Menyambut Ramadan Al-Mubarak kawan2 dan saudara-mara semua..semoga Ramadhan tahun membentuk kita jadi yang lebih baik dari sebelum2nya. semoga kita dapat laksanakan ibadah puasa dengan mudah dan lancar. Amin..
Kelmarin and semalam paklong man sufia datang lawat kami..actually diorang ada company trip..tapi diorang sampai awal and balik lewat sikit dari yang lain2..so, sempatla diorang lepak sini kejap...
jadi for the 1st time, sempat la sufia berjumpa dengan her 1st 2nd cousin in ince' aren's familiy...hehe jumpa kejap tapi asek nak gadoh je..rebut tu rebut ni..si sufia tu lah, kejap2 kata don't touch don't touch..mineeee.. =.=' fening mak..pastu bile dah nak kawan malam tadi kena balik la pulakk huhu saba je lah..
I am a Javanese girl.. everyone knows that. In fact, some of my friends called me Dilla Jawa to differentiate between me and my friends with the same name. Yes, I have quite a few friends name Dilla. Pretty awkward at first, but it was fun! hehe we still have good relationship until today and tease each other on FB (oh this is one of the reason why I keep my FB account with me, to get connected with my old friends)
OK back to the Jawa topic. I have to admit that my language is not as important now compare to during my moms or my grandparents centuries. In most places in Johor, we converse in Malay at home, at school, among the families and people used our language less and less everyday. But, for older people like my mom, they still feel comfortable to converse among them, and not with us. If we have a chat during tea time or evening time while watching TV, they usually switch the language accordingly depending on whom she is talking to. haha see, that is why young people like us do not bother to learn or even practice our language in our own family.
What ever it is, I feel so so blessed because God still give me the skill to speak the language. Should I make a "show-off" statement here? I would say, among our siblings, my sisters and brothers, I think I can talk most fluently compared to them, in the language of course. I talk much more naturally and at least I pronounce the word in less awkward way compared to them. Even my big brother has lost too many Javanese words already. Hahhahahhaa sorry, but thats a fact :p
Why am I talking about Jawa today? Hehehe just because we had a little conversation last night, between me and my friend in Jawa! Well, actually I didn't contribute much in the conversation as I was too sleepy. But still, I find it funny for young people like us to write in totally different language and I bet even my Malay friends won't understand anything from the conversation. Eh! Did I say funny? No, I suppose to say, I am proud of that!
A wife, a mum, a gov staff, and a student. I write about anything. Anything in random. Mostly about my loves and life. About the current issues, weather, celebrities and anything that I feel like to write about.
I wish one day I can write more about sewing, quilting, etc.
I write in English and Malay (and Manglish!) ;)